http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Z1HcTZW4o4A&feature=related

Now and then I think of when we were together
Like when you said you felt so happy you could die
Told myself that you were right for me
But felt so lonely in your company
But that was love and it’s an ache I still remember

You can get addicted to a certain kind of sadness
Like resignation to the end, always the end
So when we found that we could not make sense
Well you said that we would still be friends
But I’ll admit that I was glad that it was over

But you didn’t have to cut me off
Make out like it never happened and that we were nothing
And I don’t even need your love
But you treat me like a stranger and that feels so rough
No you didn’t have to stoop so low
Have your friends collect your records and then change your number
I guess that I don’t need that though
Now you’re just somebody that I used to know

Now you’re just somebody that I used to know
Now you’re just somebody that I used to know


Now and then I think of all the times you screwed me over
But had me believing it was always something that I’d done
And I don’t wanna live that way
Reading into every word you say
You said that you could let it go
And I wouldn’t catch you hung up on somebody that you used to know


But you didn’t have to cut me off
Make out like it never happened and that we were nothing
And I don’t even need your love
But you treat me like a stranger and that feels so rough
And you didn’t have to stoop so low
Have your friends collect your records and then change your number
I guess that I don’t need that though
Now you’re just somebody that I used to know

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=98P-gu_vMRc

My love is a stockpile of broken wills
Like Santa Fe, margaritas and sleeping pills
I want to lie in the cracks of this lonely road
I can fill in the blanks every time you don’t phone 
Here is the truth, I swear it used to be fun
Go ahead run, run, run, run

“It was through Amanda that I first learned of the precariousness of things and of the arrogance of certain memories in demanding your attention out of turn.”

Elliot Perlman

At her funeral, he said “This creature softened my heart of stone. She died and with her died my last warm feelings for humanity.”

^ Sebag-Montefiore,Simon . “Young Stalin” Knopf,2007, pg 193.

And if if makes you less sad we’ll start talking again

And you can tell me how vile I already know that I am

I’ll grow old and start acting my age

I’ll be a brand new day in a life that you hate.

If it makes you less sad I’ll move out of the state

You can keep to yourself I’ll keep out of your way

And if it makes you less sad I’ll take all your pictures down

Every picture you paint, I’ll paint myself out

Some men die under the mountain just looking for gold

Some die looking for a hand to hold

Fly away on my zephyr
I feel it more then ever
And in this perfect weather
Well find a place together

In the water where the scent of my emotion
All the world will pass me by
Fly away on my zephyr
Well find a place together

Sometimes, when one person is absent, the whole world seems depopulated.
—Alphonse de Lamartine

“The illusion of freedom will continue as long as it’s profitable to continue the illusion. At the point where the illusion becomes too expensive to maintain, they will just take down the scenery, they will pull back the curtains, they will move the tables and chairs out of the way and you will see the brick wall at the back of the theater.”
― Frank Zappa